oldernow
2024-04-11 13:22:34 UTC
I can't help it. I read blog/phlog/gemlog posts,
and they're often expressing pain, and I want so
badly to alleviated it. Yeah, with words, which is
probably silly. But what else in there given the
circumstances? Words have comforted me, or at least
distracted me enough from whatever sorrowful matter at
hand for it to magickally dissipate the way overly-repeated
mental shite often does.
One of the biggest areas of of "Damn!" for me is all
the younger people posting. I was that way too. Except
in my day there honestly weren't a whole lot of others
doing such compared to now - especially the all-important
opposite gender others. But it's "Damn!" for knowing they
not only likely couldn't relate to me, but have likely
been mental/emotional -ly poisoned about anyone/everyone
my age and/or skin color and/or gender. I won't even be
given a chance. I've become the default Satan/Hitler.
I saw that coming for a couple decades, by the way. I
think I was even somewhat part of it, for being capable
of acknowledging the sins of others with said ridiculously
arbitrary attributes. Acknowledging such wound up becoming
some kind of admission of guilt - and a permanent one at
that.
"AHA! YOU EVEN ADMIT YOU'RE ONE OF THEM!"
That seems to be the peak of mental acuity/discernment
out there these days.
And nothing could be further from the truth. I lived with
people of skin color not mine in the 1980s. I married
"outside my race" in the last 1980s. I've multi-racial
children.
But, nope. Irrelevant. Just take one look at me and
judge....
<sigh>
and they're often expressing pain, and I want so
badly to alleviated it. Yeah, with words, which is
probably silly. But what else in there given the
circumstances? Words have comforted me, or at least
distracted me enough from whatever sorrowful matter at
hand for it to magickally dissipate the way overly-repeated
mental shite often does.
One of the biggest areas of of "Damn!" for me is all
the younger people posting. I was that way too. Except
in my day there honestly weren't a whole lot of others
doing such compared to now - especially the all-important
opposite gender others. But it's "Damn!" for knowing they
not only likely couldn't relate to me, but have likely
been mental/emotional -ly poisoned about anyone/everyone
my age and/or skin color and/or gender. I won't even be
given a chance. I've become the default Satan/Hitler.
I saw that coming for a couple decades, by the way. I
think I was even somewhat part of it, for being capable
of acknowledging the sins of others with said ridiculously
arbitrary attributes. Acknowledging such wound up becoming
some kind of admission of guilt - and a permanent one at
that.
"AHA! YOU EVEN ADMIT YOU'RE ONE OF THEM!"
That seems to be the peak of mental acuity/discernment
out there these days.
And nothing could be further from the truth. I lived with
people of skin color not mine in the 1980s. I married
"outside my race" in the last 1980s. I've multi-racial
children.
But, nope. Irrelevant. Just take one look at me and
judge....
<sigh>
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oldernow
xyz001 at nym.hush.com
oldernow
xyz001 at nym.hush.com